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My Test & Testimony
I believe in God.
I am a person of faith and try to listen when I have felt God’s voice speaking directly to me. Well, several months ago, I heard that voice as I faced another day in a job I had grown weary of to say the least. The job had become a source of stress, I allowed others opinions to define me, and I doubted my own intellect. Simply, after nearly 18 years with the same employer, I was burning out and sadly, I was allowing it to happen.
I believe that God does not want his children to be unhappy in anything in their lives and I know I received many “warning whispers” telling me to start looking for another job, update the resume, etc. But I kept ignoring the whispers and putting the job search off. Occasionally I would put my faith in the fact that I had a couple of good days and my hope would be that all was well and it was going to get better. However, several days letter the stress would rear its ugly head again. In all that was going on I did not run from my faith in God and His promise was evident for He never left me or forsook me while I was being hard headed to change and his direction.
Time does what it does and moves on and I concluded I could no longer fight this battle and God gave me a peace in the midst of my personal storm. I resigned myself to continued to give my best as I had before all of this work turmoil started. Per the teaching of my father I recall that at the end of the day I have to remain within my integrity even when times are tough. That’s what I did. That’s when I also heeded the whispers and revised my resume and began searching for a new job.
Now it’s June 3rd, I came to work and took to my duties as normal. But this was end up being the day my tenure would end, after seventeen and a half years, my services would no longer be needed with my employer. And during a bad economy to boot. Talk about a test and a testimony!
Strange how events unfold, I was attending a work meeting, came back to my office, and there are human resource personnel on my floor. Somewhat odd? Colleagues were telegraphing what was happening (like a sports play-by-play announcer) as it was revealed several employees were being informed they were being laid off. Strangely peace grabbed hold and I went back to my office and sat down. I was still. Approximately five minutes later my boss entered. Knowing what was about to happen to me, I was fully at peace.
I was told that it would be my last day due to reorganization. It was an easy thing to hear at this point. There would be a separation package, I was fortunate. I could move forward. In peace.
As I exited the building with what few personal belongings I had at the office I felt so at peace. A peace that surpasses all understanding. I was no longer struggling to keep a job, impress my boss, or any of that. Some friends could not understand how calm I was after just being laid off. But I had been prepared for this day for several months. Thank you God. This is a testimony that if you have faith you will receive comfort and peace through any and every situation.
Ronald Wadley resides in Chicago, IL and is a Contributor to healthyblackmen.org. He has nearly 20 years experience in financial planning and analysis.